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My Journey in Life

(This is a personal post so if you would like to refrain from reading please do so! Keep tuned for next post!)
When I was 13 I made a decision to not swear ever again (or the least I could) this was after Ramadan and I stuck to my promise. After I did that, I changed as a person, it made me think about how I acted and what I was like. Then by 15 I had changed from that young girl who was rude, obnoxious and down right an unpleasant person to be around. At the time I thought I had overcome a big hurdle in my life, I had changed as a person, but now in my life I realise that was barely a feather in my journey.

To think when I was in secondary school, the biggest, most exciting thing for me, was college. That's what I looked forward to. I thought about it, for a while, and I don't think stopping that younger me would have helped me. I needed to see what the world was really like. 
When I entered college for the first time. Everything was new to me, and everything was exciting. I had…

Delay

Apologies for delay in posting, been having a struggle within myself. Will post an article soon or something else, please forgive me.

Footsteps Of Buddhism

Assalaamualikum Wa Rahmtullahi Wa Barakatuh,
Today I ...well I'd be lying if I said I read it today, I've been reading it for the past couple of weeks, it's not long, I'm just busy I suppose or preoccupied. Anyhow Buddhism, I always knew was very spiritual but I never knew how similar it was to Islam in some respects. Like often in Buddhas philosophy he would talk about dispelling selfishness and greed and attachment to worldly desires. Look at the image below for further information.


In fact he uses the term 'born' which makes a lot of sense, because when a hateful thought enters your mind, it is like it is being born as it can grow and become bigger in your head until it ...essentially takes over. This is my favourite 'because I foresaw the endless evil and harm that would follow them' we definitely believe that, it is evident in the fact that we do not free mix to prevent fornication, we do not take little bites of hell as it is essentially all of hell…

News Update

Assalaamualikum Wa Rahmtullahi Wa Barakatuh,
I am sorry for hardly posting, I have been studying and I have more duties at home now. Not that it's an excuse, I made this blog so I should be consistent. I think I'm losing ideas, I'm not as practical anymore, mainly because I've realised not all problems can have solutions from other people..I.e me. There's emotions I've felt and experiences I've been through, though I've recovered. I couldn't honestly say how I got there, and I hate that. I hate that I can't help you, the reader through your struggle. I just don't know if I am in a position to give advice, when I can't even coherently give the advice.
Well I have an idea. I do government and politics right, so we have to discuss the news everyday, so I could give you a news update with an Islamic perspective, while I think of Islamic solutions to your individual problems. Okay so recently there's talk of Conservative and Labour manifestos…

Update

Assalaamualikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,
Apologies for extreme delay in posting. Just got back into college, what with my revision timetable and cooking, I hardly have time however I will be posting in a few days so keep posted! 
Wasalaam

My Eid

I used to think Eid was all about fancy new clothes, cool places to go and people to see, but maybe over time our perception of quality of an Eid experience changes, maybe I got wiser or maybe I just finally come to understand how Islam can change persons outlook on life. 
I've been having a hard time with understanding life but alhamdulilah I've come to trust and put my faith in Allah and I plan to record how I did it.
Not that I know a lot but excuse me of my peasant-amateur experiences, today was Eid and alhamdulilah I didn't do a lot, I didn't buy extravagant clothes, or go new places, I didn't even see many people, all I had was my family with me and that was enough, because alhamdulilah you don't need that, Eid isn't about big celebrations it's about celebrating what you already have, and with the right attitude I was able to see that, when I was young I thought Eid was meant to be exciting and dramatic but it's not, it's only as far as what…

Ask Me A Question

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,
Sisters can I ask you something?
Or maybe something more?
Do you love Allah as much as this Dunya?
If you do, then how do you show it?
Are you underlining the words if you do? 
...
Is your or my love greater than Allah's?
Are you wondering why I am asking these questions everybody knows the answers to?
Do you know the real answer? Or are you confused?
Am I making sense?
...
Is my voice loud enough?
To be heard.
Or should I be a mouse with no voice?
Where do I go, to find these answers?
Answers and answers
Piling up..
Maybe you can tell me, sis, whats the answer?
Wasalaam

Feed me, Clothe me

There has been an undeniable surge and establishment of fashion in the female muslim community/hijabi fashion. I agree that it is important to take pride in your appearance and being fashionable in itself is not wrong. But wu ju bi fan- too much of anything is not good. We must govern our wants and not let them enslave us. It is okay to wear different colour hijabs, accessorize, put together different outfits or ‘OOTD’s’ etc. However, what I observe today, is hijabi’s becoming prey to consumerism and unfortunately some of us are getting eaten alive.  As muslim women, we are absolutely empowered by the clothing Allah swt has told us to wear, the abaya is a beautiful, loose fitted piece of clothing which is not only timeless, but resists any sort of ‘look’ other than the look of a muslim. It is comfortable and can wash with any occasion. There is such a beauty and a grace in the abaya and hijab that no other piece of clothing can match for a muslimah.
We must resist the consumerist socie…

New Blog

Assalaamualikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,
I on reflection have decided I will inform you of a new blog I have created the reason why I was not going to mention it, is because this blog is not so much so focused on Islam,but myself as an individual. It has my philosophical musings and may not be conventional, it won't have Islamic poems or advice or even news related to Islam. It's simply my thoughts and honestly my life, I'm not perfect so what I may say may not always be correct or normal but the reason I created it is to release my thoughts and I felt a blog would be appropriate. You can check it out if you wish, the blogs name is Infinite Vestige. JazakaAllahu Khairan. Here's the link: http://infinitevestige.blogspot.co.uk
Wasalaam

Just A Little Cuban Independence

Assalaamualikum Wa Rahmtullahi Wa Barakatuh,
So I've been researching US foreign policy and I came across the struggle for Cuban independence. Cuba was originally under Spain's control but Cuba wanted independence and with American assistance they won against Spain in 1898.However Americas kindness and altruistic nature really only comes to surface when they ban the Cuba government from signing treaties with other countries as well as making Cuba their personal little coal and naval station, really America you are too much! 
There was debate among the people despite there being imperialists there was also anti imperialists like Tillman who really did not want to interfere in the Cuban peoples right to govern ( the Teller Amendment) however the one who actually had a bigger say unfortunately felt they weren't capable of self government, I would say I'm surprised at McKinley but then again I'm not even though he, originally did not even want to go to war with Spain, be…

To my old self

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,To my old self,I am not angry with you nor am I upset in fact I understand why you acted that way, dont worry it's okay, Im here to stop you going astray. Now I can show you the right way I can correct your mistakes. There's no need to regret what you did infact we would never have learned from the past without this.Torn apart it was obvious from the start it was going shaky but we found eachother walking backwards looking for answers and there's no worry anymore. We can be stronger together, now we understand eachother better. Be strong and hold your head up no matter what anyone thinks! Wasalaam*This post was inspired by the awesome ImmysAdventures! Please check out her blog it is unbelievably wicked! MashAllah, she has a post called To The Brave I absolutely love it check it out!!*

Another Talk

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,I find that over time we become desensitized. To almost everything if we are not extremely careful. Sometimes words become meaningless and actions lack passion often creating hypocrisy in our hearts. Sometimes we pretend, to be okay to go through life with all our scars not letting anyone know how we are really feeling- but you should. Tell someone how you feel let it all out. Otherwise you end up turning to stone, you do honestly. You become resentful with life and forget about everything important. But you can avoid it.I remember a time when a sister spoke to me and MashAllah she had such taqwa and faith in the Almighty but at the time I didn't and when she spoke I understood her love but I felt a barrier there, one I felt I couldn't access because I didnt have that love so instead I pretended ,I said what I needed to- because if I didn't she would have thought there was something wrong with me.But to be truthful I would say d…

TalkTherapy

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,Today sisters, I wanted to talk about struggling in our faith. We all go through it and I can vouch I've been there in fact I can't say I'm strong in my faith, even now. I'm going to be honest right now, I've been having issues and up until now I wasn't sure on how to handle it. Well even now I cant say I can handle it properly without fully understanding Islam. Maybe I'm talking to myself but getting caught up in Hollywood and fairytales messes with reality, life is not a movie- it's a test, stop pretending that you are living a dream because you are not.The thing is after reflecting further I believe the reason why I was dipping in my faith was due to lack of consistency in my faith aswell as a lack of passion. Sometimes in our lives we go through difficulties and during or maybe after those difficulties it's hard to turn to Islam because the desire to sin helps you to escape reality. You know what'…

A thought

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,Maybe I feel guilty about this or maybe it's just a passing thought regardless I'd like to make a key point regarding my blog. In reviewing my blog I've come to see that alot of my posts are based on the needs of the muslim individually I don't think this is problematic but I would like to remind you and myself that living in this world and despite my posts about spiritual nutrition I'd like to make clear that we must not get wrapped up in our own problems and delude ourselves into thinking that first we must perfect ourselves before helping others- in no wat would I be advising this. Infact I think its essential to help others while we help ourselves, to be part of a process in where we build this Ummah and strengthen the bond between us to revive Islam fully and to uphold the words of Allah (SWT). I'd also like to make clear that I myself am still learning and so if I erred please inform me, while I am learning I p…

Journeys

Assalaamualikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,So as life has it, I find myself in such predicaments which I end up writing about here-on this blog.  I've actually been planning to write about this for a very long time- and I don't think I plan on going through such experiences just to write on here and advise you all of what not to do, but it so happens that it works out that way so I suppose y'all are some lucky fellows ;) . But this time I am not going to tell you an experience I had infact I am going to take you through a journey and through that journey we will look at how Shaytan tempts us-which may or may not be relatable to any of yous. This scenario is one which I have made up and it is not targeted at anyone. This post is a follow on from Mixing Mayhem.So you're in class and you get put in a group with girls and guys, and hey that's okay because you know what you have to do and you know that Islamically it's okay for you to talk to guys for work but if …

Driving Force Within

Assalaamualikum Wa Rahmtullahi Wa Barakatuh,So my exams are finished! (Alhamdulilah) and I've been thinking during the exam period what tends to happen, we often get lazy and then demand change however when we want change we often speak of it more greatly than we actually act upon it. Why is this? I often question this myself because I find myself in such situations where I wonder why my attitude towards life is not always 'upbeat', well first of all, in order to have such an attitude one's mentality must be changed accordingly aswell as instilling a 'corrector'. Lets start off with the attitude to change and life. Changing can be positive when enforced correctly, we must realise that change is good and it should be maintained regularly like in many posts i have mentioned doing contious good deeds. This applies to changing attitudes to life, as I have spoken about in another post we must appreciate Allah (SWT'S) bounties and look at the positives in life. T…

Just An Update

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,I will unfortunately be taking a break from posting while I have exams dont worry I'll be back for 6th June InshaAllah! Till then email me if you need anything or even if you are bored.Ciao
Wasalaam

Falling (Part 2)

Its funny how life can change in a year, a month, a few days or even a split second. This concept of time always amazes me, mainly because of how fickle I am I have no understanding of time, I change from one thing to another and although sometimes it's bad, ive come to truly appreciate it in the best of times.Sometimes I feel as though my world is crumbling okay not sometimes its those rare moments in life where you wonder when will life actually end? It just seems like a constant battle of nafs and you don't want to end up losing- again. It's not always easy to put on thos boxing gloves especially if you can't find them.Sometimes, I suppose we all get there- when we feel as though we can't fight the urge to give into our sins and we end up sinning. The reality is, when we sin we don't want to be told we are sinning because then it becomes cold hard reality we are going against our Rabb.We do everything we can to block out our dearest conscience, and yeah for …

Sock it

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,Well first off let me apologise for posting so late and second of all let me congratulate you for being here with me for the first day back to college! Boy sometimes exams really do get the best of you and sometimes the bad of you ;)... That being said the approaching exams have finally hit me hard and I'm now frantically trying to revise as much as I can however fear not people I have already done prior revision it's just my Easter holidays weren't used very wisely...So recently I've been thinking it over and decided I would do as much as I can to get the best grade I can and naturally it made me wonder why I'm not doing that to get to Jannah Al Firdous.Then I felt insanely guilty so I decided I would also pursue learning about deen and not letting it become dormant. Let's be honest sisters alot of the time we get so preoccupied with things in our lives that we forget to learn more about our Deen. We can never stop …

Outside the colouring lines (Part 1)

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,“And it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know.” (Al-Baqarah, 2:216) When I first read that I thought subhanAllah that is amazing, Allah knows us better than ourselves. But it's one thing to read it and say SubhanAllah and it's another to actually take it in and practice it. It's something I've come to realise, when we do things we perhaps shouldnt we get momentary bliss but straight after we feel an emptiness- it's an emptiness I couldn't describe to you without you feeling it.I mean let's take addiction to chocolate (minor examples are probably are better than big ones in this case) say for some reason we are on a no-chocolate diet, but we keep going back to that delicate, crispy temptation- yet we feel guilty straight after, eventhough at the time we feel like we are walking on air- the delightful aroma filling our n…

Who's that? Oh Me

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,I have been reading Life Of Pi and despite bad reviews from my friends I actually am enjoying it, I am halfway through and although I can't speak for the full novel yet, the first half is pretty damn good. I suppose the reason why I like it so much is because it raises questions, some books never raise, it goes outside the box. Yeah people may say some classical literature is highly intellectual and educational and yada yada, all that stuff people say and then try to jam it down other's throats (you know those types, I kid I kid) but to be honest I don't care if its seen to be intellectual or not I like it -I dont read something because it has a good reputation of appearing intellectual I read it because I am interested in new ideas and different perceptions! Maybe you should give it a read, tell me your thoughts. But I should warn you PI's inconsistency to stick to one religion may annoy you so be warned. So you may be wond…

Washing Away my Thoughts

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,Undoubtedly over the past week or so, I have been feeling down. I suppose I should explain a bit more. As a fellow human being I can say, hand on my heart, that I do get down, angry, annoyed and tons of other feelings I suppose we all feel. Every once in a while, I am not sure about you, but I definitely feel an emptiness somewhere in my soul, if you look far enough, past the wispy grey, and colourful smiles, there's not always a rainbow waiting.I suppose I too have wondered why? And I have come to a conclusion I believe I have landed at with reflective thinking. We all as struggling Muslimahs try our best to pray, fast, give charity and so on, but sometimes we dont feel 'good' or an uplifting sensation that I suppose we so passionately desire. Now at first I thought it may be that I am not doing enough so I tried to doing more, then I thought I am not balancing my spirituality and my social life...but now I've come to reali…

It's just You and I walking here

I'm afraid as time silently passed by, my thoughts did too, and thus the reason why I am writing so late. I am not sure whether you are aware, I write stories, teen fiction, but I'm looking to explore other areas, there's just something magical in writing; its like creating a whole new world- one day you can live in a mansion, or on the other side of the world, the possibilities are endless.In relation to writing, I think all of my posts reflect my thought process, and my version of how I see the world, and if you haven't by some odd reason, realised I have a philosophical outlook. Now the good thing about it is, I dont believe (though others would disagree) that it is hard to think philosophically, I believe we all can do it as we all have brains, and I think once you've read a perspective which thinks a bit deeper, it certainly changes your views (whether you like it or not!)Originally I was looking to advise (in any way I could I suppose) sisters, like you with …

My, My, My Mannequin in The Sky

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,I find that we are all placed in a pickle at some point in our lives, perhaps we are the one placing other's in pickles. I don't know, let's see what we can do about this pickle fiesta, shall we?What I mean by being in a pickle, is often there are situations, whether it be arguments, opinions, debates etc. There's always questions being asked, expectations being set.Sisters, we shouldn't feel obliged to change our thoughts to meet others expectations. For example if someone asks you what do you think of so and so, and you bearing in mind it is haram to backbite refrain from commenting or say she is alright, makes the person aggravated which leads the person to  further question your opinion on them, it obvious to conclude that they want an agreeable opinion that puts them in the favourable light.This is in a sense peer pressure, but no sisters I urge you to stand strong in your opinions, who is that person to make you ch…