Friday, 28 March 2014

Outside the colouring lines (Part 1)

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,

“And it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know.” (Al-Baqarah, 2:216)

When I first read that I thought subhanAllah that is amazing, Allah knows us better than ourselves. But it's one thing to read it and say SubhanAllah and it's another to actually take it in and practice it. It's something I've come to realise, when we do things we perhaps shouldnt we get momentary bliss but straight after we feel an emptiness- it's an emptiness I couldn't describe to you without you feeling it.

I mean let's take addiction to chocolate (minor examples are probably are better than big ones in this case) say for some reason we are on a no-chocolate diet, but we keep going back to that delicate, crispy temptation- yet we feel guilty straight after, eventhough at the time we feel like we are walking on air- the delightful aroma filling our noses making us forget all about that 'silly oath', the whispering of Galaxy is enough to make us even forget what we are even doing right now.

So you took another bite despite promising not to, now you feel extremely guilty. Your thinking what was it all for?

It was for that one moment in time that minute, and now it's gone. I suppose its hard to imagine rewards for the future but yet we do it all the time. We revise and study for our exams. We work hard to earn money so we can buy a new car and so on, these all take time and its not instantly rewarded. Yet when it comes to (obviously not chocolate) sinning it's so easy to forget, to struggle, to perservere and to trust what Allah has told us.

Sometimes it might feel as though there is so many boundaries, boundaries you want to go past; I suppose we don't always want to live our lives inside the colouring lines, but those boundaries are so your picture can be perfect so it can look amazing.

If you always coloured outside the lines and it was the best colouring competition, do you think you would win? No right? Our competition is Jannah and doing things we arent meant is only decreasing our chance of achieving our goal.

At the time it's exhilarating colouring outside the lines- makes you feel like a rebel, it's delightfully blissful but when you evaluate your picture i.e our scales we see that it's a mess. It's not fun anymore and that's exactly how it is when we forget Allah and his advice.

We feel regret at our actions but this feeling of worthlessness can be prevented by taking the courage to stop ourselves before we do it. It doesn't have to be a big step small steps are the road to success. You dont become a millionaire over night (Not that it's so great to be one anyway)

Help yourself by reminding yourself of the reason you dont want to sin. Remember Allah, and I can vouch that this is the most hardest thing ever because honestly you literally shut out all thoughts because you don't want to face the truth, but ukhti you have to. Force yourself because I know ukhti you would never sin when you remember Allah InshaAllah.

And if you can't do that do this, every time you do the sin (by compulsion) think about how you feel now, what happiness you feel now after doing it and how Allah sees you.

I'm afraid a step we all need to take is removing denial and rejection. Denial in the sense that we don't even acknowledge that it's bad trying to make it seem okay, no! Accept it, its wrong! Don't reject it's a sin either! And next sincerely repent. Lastly move on, don't keep thinking about that sin trust Allah he will forgive.

And cooperate in righteousness and piety, but do not cooperate in sin and aggression. And fear Allah ; indeed, Allah is severe in penalty. (Al-Maida 5:2)



Monday, 17 March 2014

Who's that? Oh Me

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,

I have been reading Life Of Pi and despite bad reviews from my friends I actually am enjoying it, I am halfway through and although I can't speak for the full novel yet, the first half is pretty damn good. I suppose the reason why I like it so much is because it raises questions, some books never raise, it goes outside the box.

Yeah people may say some classical literature is highly intellectual and educational and yada yada, all that stuff people say and then try to jam it down other's throats (you know those types, I kid I kid) but to be honest I don't care if its seen to be intellectual or not I like it -I dont read something because it has a good reputation of appearing intellectual I read it because I am interested in new ideas and different perceptions! Maybe you should give it a read, tell me your thoughts. But I should warn you PI's inconsistency to stick to one religion may annoy you so be warned.

So you may be wondering why I have decided to start talking about books all of sudden, but wahey! Hold your horses, I have a point! I think this may relate to one of my other posts but anyhoo, when we read books we read them because of several reasons, whether it is to entertain, to educate, to escape, to impress the list goes on, the reasons all in some inexplicable (perhaps spooky!) way relate to us as individuals.

Me, me and oh yeah me.

I am reading twilight because my friends read it and I don't want to be the odd one out.

Equals= All about me

I am reading Brave New World because people will think I'm smart

Equals= All about me

I am reading What A Week because I hate life and books take me away from my dull dreary life. Boohoo

Equals= All about who? Yes, Me

I understand you can't read a book for selfless reasons because who reads a book for someone else? But I mean do we ever read books in the hopes of attaining valuable Islamic knowledge that we can inform others aswell as acting upon what we learn? We need to take bigger reasons for simple actions, as in something that we do is not simply for the purpose of doing it and passing dunya time, no we do things as Muslims, with purpose for a greater reason and InshaAllah we are rewarded.

This being said it's not like you cant relax one day and just read a book to chill out- I'm talking about the constant, over obsessive nature we have when doing meaningless things. The lack of rememberance of why we do things.

So from my strange examples you may see what I'm edging towards. Yes the concept of individualism, I do this and this for myself. Unsurprisingly all our thoughts or should I say shamefully used to be mine, revovled around myself and how I Feel and how I sad I am. Now I think we all get abit wrapped around our own lives to even think about others, well yes as muslims we may donate here and there and do the odd "helping" but what it comes down to is sincerity. How sincere are we when we think of anyone besides ourselves? Do we place a bigger importance on ourselves or our beloved brothers and sisters, or even our beloved prophet (SAW)?

I think not even I can say I have truly achieved the understanding of selflessness but it's a work in the progress, don't take everything you read to mean go-away-and-immediately-change-or-else-you-may-as-well-not-try!

No we need time, and effort and...sincerity!

You put some money in the bank (okay for those who don't use banks or have one let's say piggy bank) and slowly slowly save up till you have more than you could imagine.

You started off with 1p and now the sight before your eyes you can hardly believe, yes it's the same way that when we put effort to think about others to understand the world doesn't revolve around us, that we InshaAllah will see change.

It doesn't have to be a huge change, it could be watching out for elderly people on the bus so you can offer a seat for them, or offering to open a door for someone. And for those of you who already do these things, stretch yourself! How about walking a marathon for charity? Or offering to do work at home?

That's it for now folks, you have distracted me for long enough, I have work to do unlike some people (you!) which I should be getting on with.

Don't lose hair over this, take your time, absorb it, then release the juices of knowledge to someone next time you see them and prepare to be happy InshaAllah, take care, don't go riding horses till you know how, and let me know how it goes! Peace y'all!


Saturday, 1 March 2014

Washing Away my Thoughts

Assalamualaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,

Undoubtedly over the past week or so, I have been feeling down. I suppose I should explain a bit more. As a fellow human being I can say, hand on my heart, that I do get down, angry, annoyed and tons of other feelings I suppose we all feel.

Every once in a while, I am not sure about you, but I definitely feel an emptiness somewhere in my soul, if you look far enough, past the wispy grey, and colourful smiles, there's not always a rainbow waiting.

I suppose I too have wondered why? And I have come to a conclusion I believe I have landed at with reflective thinking.

We all as struggling Muslimahs try our best to pray, fast, give charity and so on, but sometimes we dont feel 'good' or an uplifting sensation that I suppose we so passionately desire.

Now at first I thought it may be that I am not doing enough so I tried to doing more, then I thought I am not balancing my spirituality and my social life...but now I've come to realise that it's none of them.

It's so simple. Yes unbelievably simple. I wasn't renewing my intention every time I did the action, this is enables us to question why we do things and the bigger purpose for it.

As well as that we need to develop love for these actions, not 'pretending' we love them. Actually thinking, subhanAllah this is amazing, taking utter care in what we do. Doing it perfectly.

And when we pray absent mindedly we need to stop, clear our brains and just praise Him. Make sure we realise we are praying to Him! The almighty! This is a big, no huge thing, how can we even have the audacity to rush it? Our Creator my sisters.

In relation to thinking about our bigger purpose I have been wondering how many of us know about the great khilafa that we once had? Often we forget that as muslims we should stop and wonder about the world, why things happen and what action we should take to help our Deen. There's an event coming up that I think would be very beneficial for us all. InshaAllah try to attend if you live nearby London.


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